22.3.06

"Though outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed daily."

Strike that. Reverse it.

Now that's maybe a bit closer to the truth of things. I guess Paul didn't have to deal with pollutants or heavy metal poisons.

A week ago I went to my doctor to get test results (blood, hair, saliva, urine). He said my internal organs/systems are functioning like someone in their 50s. He also tested me on the spot for major allergies: oats, wheat, dairy, soy, eggs, chocolate, flax -- all bad. Man, I'm so screwed. Those were my staples. I eat what I can, not what I crave, but now what is there? Like Gandhi said, "the mind is the master of the tongue," but now what? I've tried to eat simply for several years, but where has it got me? With a body that looks pretty damn good on the outside and with innards that have aged about 20 years ahead of their time? Gee, thanks. Not to fall into the what if trap, but what if I'd just continued, oblivious to all this?

To flush the heavy metals etc, supplements and desensitizing me to my allergies will be about $4g over 4 months. From where is that going to come?